My Story: Anonymous {emergency c-section + painful breastfeeding}

#PostpartumConfession | My Story: Anonymous {emergency #c-section + painful #breastfeeding}

My Story: I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl on the 1st of March, 2015. She instantly became the centre of my entire world, and I felt so full of love. I had to have an emergency c-section as her heart rate dropped dramatically once my waters broke. I felt completely fine up until the epidural wore off. I was exhausted, in pain and a screaming newborn in my arms. I took her home 2 days later with her dad, and instantly felt like I couldn't bond because of the pain I was in. My nipples were sore and cracked, and my c-section scar felt like it was constantly on fire. I cried for the first 3 weeks of having my daughter and I felt like a terrible mum as this was supposed to be the best days of my life, and all I could do was lie in bed. I couldn't walk down the stairs, my partner had to carry me. A few weeks later I felt a lot better but still my nipples were terribly sore and my milk wasn't enough for my daughter. I had to eventually put her onto bottles as it was doing no good for me or her. Six months gone and all the pain vanished, I'm now the happiest I have ever been. But would never wish to feel that way again!