My real story doesn't begin until my second birth. My first went well and, despite stitched up lady bits, I did well enough and I was happy. I was only overwhelmed for about a week.
My second birth was an easy delivery and recovery but I had so many more obstacles emotionally. I loved my new baby girl but I suddenly felt so guilty. I realized that I had been taking my first for granted and I regretted weaning her.
I wanted my first to be a little baby again. I wanted her cuddles and her nursing. I felt even more guilty that I wanted that from her when I had my second in my arms. It was just a mess.
After a few weeks of feeling this way, I finally came to accept that my first wasn't even interested in breastfeeding anymore but she still loved me and wanted my cuddles. She also still loved her sister and wasn't jealous at all. She was just independent and all of my guilt and bad feelings were in my head. My husband was very supportive the whole time and I think that is what helped a lot in the end. I cant say we're perfect by any means but our family is very happy now.
Marlana Moore | Lutz, FL | Mama to Fiona, 2 and Lisanna, 3months
Earlier this week I guest starred on the Maternally Yours radio show + podcast. It was my very first live interview and I didn't drop one f-bomb! My part starts @ 7:59 and goes for about 20 minutes. Click here to listen! Let me know what you think, and please share!
Friends! I had the pleasure of chatting with Katie Johnson today - she was kind enough to be my guest on the maiden voyage of the Postpartum Confession podcast.
Katie is the mother to a son and daughter (twins) in Heaven and a daughter and son here on Earth - with a fifth baby on the way! She shares how callously she was treated in the hospital while birthing her twins, the one beautiful gesture that stood out from a staff member, and how you can support a friend or family member after a loss.