My Story: In my twenties I gave birth to my beautiful daughter after three years of marriage. I had morning sickness for the first three months but after that (aside from the swelling in my ankles in the final month) I was on top of the world and felt great emotionally and physically. During the pregnancy, I came across a documentary that showed new mothers having a problem breastfeeding. The baby could not latch on. I felt bad for them as I thought it probably wouldn't happen to me. Then it did. I tried so hard and held my baby the way the nurse showed me and also tried to help her find the nipple but she could not latch on. There were hospital support groups offered for after care but I didn't reach out to them because I felt like this might be uncommon. I also went through some of the other postpartum blues but I realized through the years that I didn't have to go through it alone. This picture stood out to me because that was me back then. I made the decision to switch to a bottle but still had to go through a period of time before she learned how to latch on to the nipple. I also felt great in my second pregnancy but had problems with cracking and bleeding and noticed the blues showing up again. I wanted to focus on my first pregnancy because I was a new mother and I felt guilty that I could not make things work. I wanted to bond with both of my newborns but felt that we possibly all missed out because I switched them to formula. I have been blessed to meet a lot of wonderful people in my life but never really have been able to share this part of me completely until now. I am more grateful than ever and love my daughter and son very much. I normally do not comment online very often unless I am truly inspired.
Rachel Wells | San Jose, CA | Mama to Allison, 21 and John, 13